I can’t even

I can’t shake this feeling that maybe there is more to do in life. I am not sure if it’s because I am coming fresh off of a vacation from Cancun. Maybe I am still feeling relaxed and revived from turning 24 years old- or maybe the pilot on my trip back to San Diego is releasing drugs through the air vents and making me feel all sorts of ways- regardless, here we are.

I watched a video from the one and only Kalyn Nicholson – Episode 1 of her new series Coffee Chronicles and it gave me all the feels. She explains how she feels like it’s easy to get caught going through the motions of life. You work and work, go go go and what do you have to show for it? Sure you can have money, nice things, but what happens when that isn’t enough? This video resonated with me so much as I prepare to go back into what I left at work for a week. Back to bills, make up and wearing pants.

I have learned in my 24 short years, only recently might I add, that we are created for so much more. I am not speaking religiously, or even trying to be mushy gushy- just realistic here. Why do we work so hard? Why do we want our children to receive a good education? Quality of life. And what is life if all we do is go go go?

Vegas Friend has really opened my eyes to the world outside of work, anxious thoughts and what really matters. I think it is really important to work hard, save your vacation time, travel, learn, explore- do all of the things.

I think it all just goes to say that your mindset is really what counts. You should always be grateful for what you have, and never envious for what you do have. If you really want something, work hard for it and you can achieve it. But do not get sucked into what society wants you to do. If we only focus on today, and our problems and issues we will drive ourselves into the ground.

Refresh Routine

After 4 flights, 8 hours of layovers, more than 20 hours of travel and only showers with minimal water pressure- I was aching for a refresh of sorts. I find myself seeking a refresh in two times. One is when I have had a really long week and I begin to feel as if the week is swallowing me whole. I tend to lose myself, rational thoughts, and my positivity after a while. Two is when I have neglected my responsibilities or been away for a while and have to jump back into reality.

This blog is all about number two. Cancun was so great, but reality always smacks you in the face. Having severe anxiety I plan, replan and over plan the things I will do from the moment I get home to the moment I go to sleep- exhausting I know. There are different types of refreshing though, depending on the need.

You can mentally refresh- which I find myself doing on the weekends, or on Friday nights as my work week comes to an end. I find so much importance in making sure you are mentally in a good place, as it sets the tone for the day. A few ways I do this (I guess because I am a Californian/hippy/millennial/freak) are to diffuse some essential oils. I like to make sure my surroundings are clean, and free of mess and clutter. I will take a long hot shower, write a blog not to be publish (there’s a ton!) or even do some yoga. Some times I will just listen to music or have a little dance party in my room- whatever makes me feel free, and clear, and happy.

I have always loved and appreciated the saying that “a clear home is a clear mind”. It’s taken me a really long time to be able to keep my place at a constant state of clean, and most of it is sheer laziness and maybe 2% time. I always like to start my week off with a clean home, clean clothes, I will clean out my purse- any task to just get rid of the old and in with the new I fully embrace. Isn’t it always nicer to wake up and come home to a clean house? I think so.

Then there is the emotional refresh. This is tricky for me, always. Because I struggle with anxiety I find myself constantly wrapped up in the “what if’s” and those thoughts steal your happiness. Sometimes, because I am a child apparently, I really just have to tell myself “it’s okay, you’re okay, everything is okay” (told you I was a child). Emotionally this just lets me release what I am freaking out about move on to what really matters- like coffee and cookie dough.

Considering I am experiencing a vacation hangover to the Nth degree right now, I’ve implemented all of these steps. It can be hard to transition from a work week to weekend, or vacay to work week- but positivity is the key. You just take that hangover, smother it in essential oils, give it a nap and some coffee- you’ll be good as new.